urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles Like a skull shaped balloon I believe in us hattles 2006-04-19T20:27:52Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:80110 2006-04-19T20:27:52Z 2006-04-19T20:27:52Z silence what the fuck is up with me lately!<br />i have had a baaaaaad bad bad month for being ill!<br />first of all, i break my toe, it only sounds minor but i can assure it was really bad timing, as my parents went on holiday so i found it really hard to get around and it hurt so much for ages!<br />second of all, i got acne<br />thirdly, my acne got infected and developed into impetigo AND THEN i had a reaction to the medication i was on. hmmmmmm nice<br />and now i have somthing crazy wrong with my stomach! which i've been screaming and crying over. i went to the doctors about it and they don't even know whats up they've put me on pain killers which are a god send and they help me, but i don't want to be filling my body with tablets for weeks and weeks on end.<br />i'm really not very happy with my immune system at the moment and the amount of pain im in. but it s not just that because i'm ill all the time this means i have to cancel plans i havent seen daz in about a week which REALLY pisses me off and i missed polly's gathering, this whole easter and for the past week i've spent most of my time in bed, not really doing anything productive it so depressing i want to go out and have fun.<br /><br />c'mon immune system, WORK! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:79645 2006-04-16T16:16:08Z 2006-04-16T16:16:08Z <font color="#000000" size="6">pain killers. give me pain killers. </font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:79365 2006-03-29T17:22:26Z 2006-03-29T17:22:26Z hattie crazy girl scattered erratically automatically static like rap you see a masterpiece of humankind her dna is superfine unlike mine which is made out weed and wine jump the line outta space and time realize her minds loose and it tastes quite like lime juice<br /><br />jack did that, how awesome! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:79341 2006-03-02T20:24:42Z 2006-03-02T20:24:42Z holy moly! can i just say, i have been bombarded with coursework!<br />-media<br />-textiles<br />-maths<br />-art<br />-science<br />-two pieces of english<br />all in for march 17th! ain't gonna happen mate! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:79014 2006-02-25T20:56:04Z 2006-02-25T20:56:04Z i would like to thank krissi on behalf of reminding me how good M.I.A is! i love it when i get reminded about good music i forget! x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:78620 2006-02-20T23:41:04Z 2006-02-20T23:41:04Z just to set a few things straight.<br /><br /><br />I am not a hussy urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:78583 2006-02-19T18:31:25Z 2006-02-19T18:31:25Z fuck off. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:78170 2006-02-09T19:20:13Z 2006-02-09T19:20:13Z everything is so stressful! i cant cope very well at the moment i've cried at least 3 times tonight over my textiles. i know it sounds stupid but i really do think i will fail all my subjects urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:78053 2006-01-29T11:01:33Z 2006-01-29T11:01:33Z i had a lot to say in this entry, but as usual i've forgotten most of it. well anyway, the one thing that is on my mind is that i miss heather and that i love her. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:77641 2006-01-09T23:45:03Z 2006-01-09T23:45:03Z why do i feel like last year is playing over and over again? this isn't a good thing. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:77524 2006-01-01T17:25:08Z 2006-01-01T17:25:08Z please Post anything that you want.<br />Post it anonymously. <br /><br />A story.<br />A secret.<br />A confession.<br />A fear.<br />A love.<br />A picture. <br />A poem. <br />A lyric. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:77193 2005-12-31T19:24:29Z 2005-12-31T19:24:29Z <font color="#000099" size="7">WAHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo maisie is born! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOP WOOOOP!!!!!!!!!!!! </font> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:76976 2005-12-30T14:25:33Z 2005-12-30T14:25:33Z Transport, motorways and tramlines<br />Starting and then stopping<br />Taking off and landing<br />The emptiest of feelings<br />Disappointed people clinging on to bottles<br />And when it comes it's so so disappointing<br /><br />Let down and hanging around<br />Crushed like a bug in the ground<br />Let down and hanging around<br /><br />Shell smashed, juices flowing<br />Wings twitch, legs are going<br />Don't get sentimental<br />It always ends up drivel<br /><br />One day I'm going to grow wings<br />A chemical reaction<br />Hysterical and useless<br />Hysterical and ...<br /><br />Let down and hanging around<br />Crushed like a bug in the ground<br />Let down and hanging around<br /><br />Let down again<br />Let down again<br />Let down again<br /><br />You know, you know where you are with<br />You know where you are with<br />Floor collapsing<br />Floating, bouncing back<br />And one day....<br />I am going to grow wings<br />A chemical reaction<br />Hysterical and useless<br />Hysterical and...<br /><br />Let down and hanging around<br />Crushed like a bug in the ground<br />Let down and hanging around urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:76594 2005-12-29T18:49:33Z 2005-12-29T18:49:33Z this years been fucking wank urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:76301 2005-12-29T18:48:38Z 2005-12-29T18:48:38Z editors AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH<br />im going to make a hate list<br />school,revision,infected piercings, cold,winter,christmas,being sad,lonely,snow,shit music, cold tea,cold beans,being fucked over,fucking people over.<br />im so fucking angry! ahhhhhhhhhh ahhhhhhhh ahhhhhhh ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhahahahahahahahahhahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:76101 2005-12-25T15:32:34Z 2005-12-25T15:32:34Z Things aren't alright, so that shows it's not the end. Hopefully next year will be a lot better... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:75893 2005-12-24T10:25:52Z 2005-12-24T10:25:52Z i'm not very happy. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:75726 2005-12-18T14:40:59Z 2005-12-18T14:40:59Z went to a party last night. it was shit. went to another one the night before. it was sexy! x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:75445 2005-12-10T17:28:20Z 2005-12-10T17:28:20Z broken social scene bad things:<br />my mum thinks im pregnant<br />hannahs being a twat, she has my mp3 player<br />im ill<br />i was sick in first floor last night<br />i have a huge blister on my foot the size of Manhatten<br />i have to go out tomorrow<br />im itchy<br />my clothes smell of smoke<br />im tired<br />my hairspray has made my hair go crispy<br />i have mock exams this week<br />i havent prepared for my art exam, let alone know what im doing<br />im failing all subjects<br />my nails keep breaking<br />ive lost weight<br />i'm hungry<br />i need a job<br />sister has deleted all my music off my mp3 player<br /><br />good things:<br />daz was lovely and walked me home yesterday after i had being sick<br />daz has made me very happy<br />im listening to broken social scene<br />i love my friends<br />im quite happy :)<br />i saw joe today who i havent seen in aggggeeeess! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:75114 2005-12-05T22:10:15Z 2005-12-05T22:10:15Z i keep being sick! im never sick! blurgh blurgh blurgh! please leave lots of comments for me to read when im off school tomorrow! x urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:74783 2005-12-02T16:37:12Z 2005-12-02T16:37:12Z everythings awkward. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:74750 2005-11-28T18:51:54Z 2005-11-28T18:51:54Z shampoo suicide haha i was right :) and it's too late now.<br />i regretted that. i don't regret this. <br />i was the nice one. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:74313 2005-11-21T20:44:25Z 2005-11-21T20:50:23Z this is going to sound so so so gay! but,ive always thought hope and faith are the most wonderful things you can have. however, since all this shit has happened to me recently im starting to think hope and faith are just blindness to the real world. which is why im starting to loose faith in religion, i feel harsh saying all that, but ive been lied to about feelings why can't i be lied to about something that you can't even proove is there. ive never really had a reason to believe in it all, but stuff was said and things had happened. i know that this is going to start up a huge debate but i don't really care. until i can find something i can have hope and faith in maybe i can get my faith in religion back. however, i cant. so at the moment i can see its pretty lost. i suppose im kindof pissed off that i have had to go through a lot of shit just to learn this lesson. i know that this post is extremly angsty and you may think i take things for granted. i dont. im just lacking a few things in my life right now. things are very different now heather isn't around as much, i don't have many friends and although you may say you are my friends i dont really hang around with anyone that much other than ruby and ben. so thankyou to them. i do miss heather, lots, since she got pregnant things have gone downhill, i dont blame her for that, i dont blame the baby, i dont blame kev. i blame myself because im not there for her as much as i should and looking back i can be a pretty selfish and lousy friend.<br />im jelous of a lot people, i'm jelous of becki, she has faith and hope in something and shes always happy. ruby has a lot of people same with rosa and polly. im jelous of my sister! she gets all the boys. i know i dont need a boy to be happy, rob taught me that lesson showing me boys are nothing. i think i just want it because i cant have it. i'm not sad because i dont have a boyfriend and god this is so gay i cant believe im writing this i will go onto that list now.<br />early resolutions<br />- try and grow my nails<br />-be nice<br />-spend time with hev and her babby<br />-do more coursework<br />-get a god dam job<br /><br /><br />I got my heart but my heart's no good<br />you're the only one that's understood<br />you are the perfect drug<br />take me with you<br />without you everything just falls apart<br />it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces<br /><br /><br /><br />im going now bye x sorry about that gay post people. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:74114 2005-11-18T17:04:40Z 2005-11-18T17:04:40Z today is going to be busy,ive got to go to town, get my trousers and my hair dye, go back home<br />dye my hair, get changed go to town the go to bens party phoof! what a hectic night! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:hattles:73853 2005-11-02T17:04:19Z 2005-11-02T17:04:19Z today has been weird. i had something i wanted to write about but then arnold shook my hand and i forgot all about it.<br />oh yes! i remember now. it was about year 11, everyone seems to be fighting and falling out (olivia and lauren) many more to name. did this happen to everyone else when they were in year 11?